But God...

Towards the start of this year I really started thinking about what I wanted to do with my life. I really began to realize that vocational ministry was not for me. So I though of ways to use the “gifts” I have of being an anal, organized, task-oriented, results-driven kind of person and decided i wanted to become a teacher. My freshman year of college a TFA corps member came and presented in one of my classes. I fell in love with the though of becoming a teacher without having to change my major…I went to Baylor knowing that I wanted to study FORENSIC SCIENCE so that’s what I did. And now that TFA was offering me the opportunity to  continue to pursue that and be able to teach I thought it was a match made in heaven… long story short, I graduated, got a little "side-tracked" did the (ministry-minded) Kanakuk Institute, then went to work for (ministry-minded) Ventana discipling girls and then signed a 3 year contract with (ministry-minded) K-life. My energy meter continues to plummet as I’m doing "relationship" all day every day and the “tasker” within suffers. As my last year with K-Life is coming to a close I thought I’d apply to TFA so that I could get my fix. A little people here,  a little task there and I’m good to go…all the people around me were saying that I’d make a great teacher and if TFA didn’t choose me who knows what kind of person they look for… SHOWS HOW MUCH THEY KNOW… TFA didn’t offer me a position, let alone even a final interview…

so here i am trying to discern God's will. He knew TFA wasn't going to be what i needed/wanted...and so her i am with a million and one questions: (here's just 10 of them)

1) do i continue to pursue some way, some place to teach?

2) is teaching for me?

3) do the gifts, desires, passions i have lend themselves to teaching?

4)what the h-e-double-hockey-sticks do i do with my life?

5) do i still move to kc? (that's another blog for another day)

6) what about MTR?

7) do i pursue forensics?

8) why are there no entry level forensics positions?

9) do i even want to move to memphis?

10) do i go home?

as you can see, this uncertainty in life lends itself to asking questions, that i'm no so sure the Lord will give me direct answers to. in all honesty, i just want to be obedient...(Lord, did You hear that?!) I'm just not sure how that looks exactly as it pertains to my life, and the pursuit of holiness...

so with all that said, feel free to present MY requests to the Lord with thanksgiving by prayer and supplication...and i'll be forever grateful. i'll let you know how things turn out...

in the meantime,

HOLLA BACK!