yeah, so kamp is over...good summer. NEVER before (at the end of the summer) have i been able to say that "i could go another session if i had to..." seriously?! yeah, it was one of the weirdest feelings that i've ever had, and i'll admit, i definitely could've gone another round...even at the end...exhausted and spent... now don't get me wrong, i glad kamp ended when it did, it's just that i did things differently, and had enough energy to do it all again for another 8 days.
KRAZY!
well, i'm back here in STL for round 2 of k-life...when all my cohorts (like that?) are finishing up their 3rd year i'm here barely startin my 2nd. i've come to realize that ministry is not my calling as a vocation...i think i knew that coming in to k-life, but pressed on anyway. and i'm here struggling to battle the turmoil within...as much as i don't want to do this (programmatic side of things...on top of the ridiculousness of working for the school district), i have bought in to the vision dom and jason have cast here, and want to stick it out for the long haul...how do you explain that? i guess i just need my role redefined...?
i want to see the city of STL transformed for Christ. i want to see these kids' lives changed for the better. i want to see these families living for the Lord...i guess for now, i'm ok with not using my degree...at least my undergrad degree...thanks J Lanks!
i'm not an evangelist, and i feel that's what i'm doing here. gimme devoted followers to teach Scripture to any day and i'm like a fat kid in front of his favorite chocolate cake...but chasing kids daily is NOT MY GIFT--especially the ones who could care less. i'm not here to convince them they need Jesus. the Spirit will do that on His own.
anywho...that's my heart for now...more later
until then, "you can find me in the tub playin with bubbles..."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GautSlgAsN0
