oh my, karen!

today was the first experiential bout with the massage table. all i can say is... (now say this with a british accent) "please sir, may i have another?" I called yesterday and scheduled an appointment for a massage... i roll up there today, and feel so much better afterwards! Ms. Karen hooked it up! i'm definitely going to have to go back there. i got the chance to talk to Karen about working for K-Life and asked her how she got into massage. she said she's been doing it for about 7 years and before that was an occupational therapist, but got out of that because of the politics of health insurance. she said her conscience wouldn't let her rest...so she got out. she explained how much she loves massage and how God can take the bad and work them for good...

this is proof that God hears the prayers of the righteous...not that i'm super righteous or anything...TRUST ME! on my way to the massage parlor...do they call em parlors still? anyway on my way i asked the Lord to allow me an opportunity to have a conversation with my therapist...and BAM there it is...an opening. I wasn't too sure where to take the conversation after that, but at least i know a little about karen. relationships take time. she really worked it out though. i left there feeling much better...i almost had this sense that as she was massaging me, she was praying for me, but who knows?! needless to say, i had a great time, and will mos def be returning to get another

round 2:
i was talking to the one and only nikkie c yesterday and had a revelation. there are people in your life that come and go...PERIOD. the problem that ihave is that i want to hold on to all of my relationships. i feel burdened if i let people go...i honestly think this stems from my abandonment and rejection issues i used to have about my dad never being around...but i'm no therapist...it's only an uneducated guess into the underlying thread plaguing most girls in today's society.

so i've come to accept the fact that i can't hold on to everyone that i come into contact with. some people you just gotta let go...unfortunately. no, that doesn't mean i can't pray for them, but i don't have to stress myself out in order to find validation in who i am through them...or maybe the stress will just give me an excuse to go see karen. ;)

some people are just in you life for a season. in and out...that is all. there's a million people that i remember from earlier in my life that i've stressed about trying to keep up with, and then when i think about it, i realize that they've already let me go...so why am i stressing? they've done nothing to invest in me through this time or give me reason to think they want to maintain relationship, so why am i worried about it? am i right or wrong in thinking this way? honest opinions greatly appreciated...

pray for me...